I'm not really sure what you are trying to say in this veeeery long sentence. But I really want to. Can you rephrase it please? I've read it three times now and still don't understand.

I'm trying to figure out:

Do or don't you live in Europe?

Is it a good thing or a bad thing?

Are the people for or against you? and Why?

Was Zulie attacking you in her comments?

Do you normally live in the states, but because you don't like the work principles there, you decided to move to Europe?